SPENDING MY DAY REARRANGE AND CLEAN THOSE OLD STUFF

Story begins........

Tis was my 2nd time cleaning and rearranged the things in my room.

This time, i found some long time 'unused' accesories and 'unwanted' stuff, all i did was put them into a box. Although i m clear in mind that i may not use them again, but i wan to keep them as part of my sweet memory in my life.

Another discovered was,

Appreciate things belongs to you when they are in ur hands. 
Don't put them simply,
Don't have the thought that they wont go off from you,
It's because they wont return no matter how hard u have tried if they go away,
Even the shadows and its souls will not be back,
So put them in place where u can c alwiz ;

On the other hand,

Things that aren't in fate/destiny with you,
Do not waste time searching,
Do not spend your golden time waiting,
It's because they aren't belongs to you,
And, u have time cost.  

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For unknow reason, i lost my laughters and my smiles.

Finally i found my direction to stay in the firm i am now, but unfortunately, some non-sense happened in office seems trying to push me away from where i am standing. I was so fed up listening colleagues talking about who being bully and how he/she being bullied. Maybe i don't feel anger so much as those affected, perhaps i am the lucky 1 presently, hence felt so tired when those ppl talking abt tis topic.

Why ppl lik to manipulate the stories? Why ppl cant just mind their own business? Why so many things happened when i had finally made up my mind to stay in where i am? Frankly, i felt those ppl are so disgusting although they haven't offended me yet, hopefully it will never happen. They looked so fake that they can be nice with you in front , but at ur back, i can't imagine what stories/rumours/bull-shit being discussing by them and i don't wana know. Knowing them will just make me fed up of the firm, lead me to have the thought of resign again.

Maybe, realising the true FACES of those ppl, 
i don't feel like i'm as happy as when initially joined,  
i lost my laughters,
i lost my 24hrs smiley face,
i lost my talkative character,
i lost my fast reaction in responding,
i'm prone to anti-social'

and finally,

wondering am i lost again ?

 Luckily, god sent me 3 trusted colleagues to pull me back from making wrong decision. I have no say if they wana betray me, the choices are on their hand. To stay, as long as i'm still not fallen out from the roller coaster.